Feb 28, 2009
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,
I am really enjoying working at the cash register at breakfast. I am getting the hang of it as there are many ins and outs to who pays for what. Renunciates get certain things free and other things they have to pay for, and then there are meal cards that anyone can buy (sort of like a prepaid credit card).
I went off for my Vedic Astrology reading this morning immediately after my breakfast seva shift. What a huge amount of information that I received from this astrologer. Including certain specific stones that I should and should not wear and which finger to wear them on and what metal they should be set in, among many other things.
I was told the specific puja that I should have done once a year to improve things for my life and to cancel out some of the negative tendencies that are following me from past life karmas.
I need to start doing Archana EVERYDAY. This is imperative and came up numerous times in my reading. Amma's getting me to work...this will take some effort on my part to be able to learn how to read the 1,000 names of the Divine Mother. It was explained that each letter and combination of sounds in each name is working on all of the nerve endings and stimulation points in the body, so it's not just chanting the different aspects of the Goddess, it's that and much more. Chanting the 1,000 Names works on ALL levels; spiritual, emotional, mental and physical. It's good for everyone, but ESPECIALLY me.
Amma is currently giving Darshan in the Kali Temple and I am getting ready to study for my Malayalam class. I want to appear as though I have done some work over these last few days (even though I have not).
You know, I am finding myself observing how I am here around Amma. It's very different. In the West, I am eagerly awaiting Darshan, but here, I have not taken a token at all after the first Darshan. I am quite fine not receiving Darshan, but just being here and present and witnessing and meditating and learning and experiencing. There are a lot of people who are coming to Amma on a regular basis. People from nearby areas, school children, westerners who are here for only a short/limited time. I figure I am here for awhile and will go on Tour with Her, so I will have plenty of opportunities. Also, I will see Mother in Seattle upon my return to North America, so it's all good and I feel really good about that ability to surrender the desire to be in Her arms as often and as long as possible.
It's not the number of times one receives Darshan, rather the mindful quality of each precious moment in Her presence that matters.
It's quite unreal being here in this bubble of Amma's Ashram. I could stay here forever (and some do). It's like being in a very highly spiritual votex that you just don't ever want to escape from.
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Sadness and Joy all at the same time
Feb 27, 2009
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,
It's very interesting to see how life begins to play out once the heart is opened.
Prachetas left this morning at 10:30am for Kovallum (beach resort) and then he leaves for California on Monday morning. This has brought some sadness to me as he was a really wonderful person that I connected with right away upon my arrival at Amritapuri and he was instrumental in showing me the ropes around here. You sort of need that around here as things are scheduled differently when Amma is here versus when She is not here and on tour. Also, the ins and outs of being at the Ashram and the little "tricks of the trade" were great to learn from him and now he is gone.
Amma teaches us to not be attached to anything as nothing is permanent. I don't feel that I was attached to him, but when the heart begins to open and you connect with someone from that space, it's very difficult to see that person go. At the same time, he did introduce me to many people here who are still remaining at the Ashram for some time, so for this I am greatful! I am also very greatful for Prachetas' willingness to be my "mentor" and for all the gifts that he bestowed upon me. Amma/Kali is really being very kind to me on this first trip to Her home.
I will have my third Malayalam class today at 1pm. I am looking forward to it and not looking forward to it at the same time. I have not had much time to practise or study what I learned yesterday. I don't want to be scolded again by the teacher.
Tomorrow morning at 10am, I have my Astrology session with Sri Mohanji, the resident Vedic Astrologer. I am excited and joyful about that as I am sure that this reading will unleash some interesting information for me and that I will be able to have a homa (fire ceremony) done to enhance and bless me on my path. All of this is very intriguing.
There is still no "official" word on Amma's tour plans within or outside of India at this point, so I am quickly learning to "let go and let God".
I think I am going to go over the backwaters today to take a look at some of the dhoti's that are available at Amma's Tailor Shop. I need a few more to wear around here and on tour. Things get very dirty, very quickly around here. There is a lot of dust and sand. By the Grace of Amma, my allergies and stomach problems have not been an issue at all since arriving here. I had the similar experience when I travelled to Punjab in the past. I think that the Indian climate and experience REALLY suits me.
Anyhow...I should go now if I am going to beat the midday sun. I want to go and get some clothes and then I will have lunch and class, followed by some time to sit and meditate on Amma while She gives Darshan.
Stay tuned for more of my experiences from Amritapuri.
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah!
Feb 27, 2009 - Part II
Hmmm...so much to my surprise, Amma did not give Darshan today, She just came out for evening bhajans - which is always a treat to be a part of. So...I landed up taking a rest and copying pictures and three little video clips that Prachetas took on his camera (which I uploaded to my computer) onto CDs for Gireesh (the head Priest in the Kalari Temple). They were taken on the night of Shivaratri and it's so powerful that when you watch these short clips of the Shiva Arti and the Shiva Bhajans, it takes you right back to that moment in time and space. What a blessing to have these moments captured. Anyhow...Gireesh requested a copy so I burned these disks for him and then went down for Bhajans with Amma.
I had pizza and fries (really bad) for dinner tonight. I have been eating in the Indian line almost everyday for lunch and dinner, that I needed a bit of a change. I won't do it that often.
Then, I placed an order with the tailor right below the Kali Temple for some pants in cream coloured raw silk. I need to have somethings to wear since I didn't bring much with me at all. Now it's soon off to bed so that I can awake for morning Archana.
Amma gives Darshan tomorrow, and I have my vedic astrology reading at 10am...can't wait!
Aum Namah Shivaya
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,
It's very interesting to see how life begins to play out once the heart is opened.
Prachetas left this morning at 10:30am for Kovallum (beach resort) and then he leaves for California on Monday morning. This has brought some sadness to me as he was a really wonderful person that I connected with right away upon my arrival at Amritapuri and he was instrumental in showing me the ropes around here. You sort of need that around here as things are scheduled differently when Amma is here versus when She is not here and on tour. Also, the ins and outs of being at the Ashram and the little "tricks of the trade" were great to learn from him and now he is gone.
Amma teaches us to not be attached to anything as nothing is permanent. I don't feel that I was attached to him, but when the heart begins to open and you connect with someone from that space, it's very difficult to see that person go. At the same time, he did introduce me to many people here who are still remaining at the Ashram for some time, so for this I am greatful! I am also very greatful for Prachetas' willingness to be my "mentor" and for all the gifts that he bestowed upon me. Amma/Kali is really being very kind to me on this first trip to Her home.
I will have my third Malayalam class today at 1pm. I am looking forward to it and not looking forward to it at the same time. I have not had much time to practise or study what I learned yesterday. I don't want to be scolded again by the teacher.
Tomorrow morning at 10am, I have my Astrology session with Sri Mohanji, the resident Vedic Astrologer. I am excited and joyful about that as I am sure that this reading will unleash some interesting information for me and that I will be able to have a homa (fire ceremony) done to enhance and bless me on my path. All of this is very intriguing.
There is still no "official" word on Amma's tour plans within or outside of India at this point, so I am quickly learning to "let go and let God".
I think I am going to go over the backwaters today to take a look at some of the dhoti's that are available at Amma's Tailor Shop. I need a few more to wear around here and on tour. Things get very dirty, very quickly around here. There is a lot of dust and sand. By the Grace of Amma, my allergies and stomach problems have not been an issue at all since arriving here. I had the similar experience when I travelled to Punjab in the past. I think that the Indian climate and experience REALLY suits me.
Anyhow...I should go now if I am going to beat the midday sun. I want to go and get some clothes and then I will have lunch and class, followed by some time to sit and meditate on Amma while She gives Darshan.
Stay tuned for more of my experiences from Amritapuri.
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah!
Feb 27, 2009 - Part II
Hmmm...so much to my surprise, Amma did not give Darshan today, She just came out for evening bhajans - which is always a treat to be a part of. So...I landed up taking a rest and copying pictures and three little video clips that Prachetas took on his camera (which I uploaded to my computer) onto CDs for Gireesh (the head Priest in the Kalari Temple). They were taken on the night of Shivaratri and it's so powerful that when you watch these short clips of the Shiva Arti and the Shiva Bhajans, it takes you right back to that moment in time and space. What a blessing to have these moments captured. Anyhow...Gireesh requested a copy so I burned these disks for him and then went down for Bhajans with Amma.
I had pizza and fries (really bad) for dinner tonight. I have been eating in the Indian line almost everyday for lunch and dinner, that I needed a bit of a change. I won't do it that often.
Then, I placed an order with the tailor right below the Kali Temple for some pants in cream coloured raw silk. I need to have somethings to wear since I didn't bring much with me at all. Now it's soon off to bed so that I can awake for morning Archana.
Amma gives Darshan tomorrow, and I have my vedic astrology reading at 10am...can't wait!
Aum Namah Shivaya
Everything and then Some...
Feb 26, 2009
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,
Working at the cash register for the Western Canteen every day for breakfast is a wonderful seva to do. You get to see people right away in the morning after they have either meditated with the sun rise and/or done Archana.
Dealing with the Indian money is disgusting though...it's really dirty so I am constantly washing my hands here (moreso than in the West).
I had my second Malayalam class today and the teacher was a little annoyed with me as she could tell that I didn't do any studying last night at all. I guess somethings will never change. There really isn't a lot of time to practise what I've learned as the days are so rich with things to do here.
Today I changed all of the US money (cash) that I brought with me, had a Malayalam class, bought a mini travelling size harmonium (which I had seen and couldn't resist), signed up for an astrology reading scheduled on Saturday morning, went and sat with Mother, did prashad seva, and watched (up close) a most beautiful Pada Puja (honouring of the Feet of the Guru by bathing them in different materials such as milk, ghee, water, etc.) This Indian couple approached Amma toward the end of Darshan today and did this entire ritual with so much love and devotion, it was mesmerizing. After performing the Pada Puja they adorned Her with 22K gold anklets, bracelets, earrings, rings, necklaces and a most beautiful gem studded Krishna crown. They then wrapped a red and gold sari around Her.
This entire witnessing made me cry my eyes out. They fed Her prashad that was obviously homemade. It was a kind of Sikh prashad with cashews. Amma was hilarious and totally like Krishna. She literally picked through the prashad and pulled out ALL of the cashews and ate them Herself. Then She scooped out little by little the prashad and handed in directly into the hands of the nearby devotees. By Amma's Grace, I was right by Her shoulder (behind the videographer) and was able to reach my hand out and receive some of the blessed offering.
Bhajans followed this experience with Amma, but She did not come out for bhajans. Swami just led the bhajans and they were nice. Amma must have been quite tired by this time and retired to Her room.
After bhajans, I had dinner (masala dosa and neyroast) - my new favourite meal for dinner at the Ashram, which is only served when Amma is here so I'd better get my full share in as quickly as possible. This was in celebration of Prachetas' going away. He is leaving tomorrow for Kovallum and then leaves on Monday for Nevada City, CA.
It just blows my mind away how Amma fulfills every need. I am blessed a million times over and I can truly feel it. My mind has never once considered what I am going to do when I get back home for work. I am just not concerned by it in the least. I know that Amma will take care of all those minor details.
I should go now and do some studying before bed so that I don't get reprimanded again tomorrow. It's 11pm here now and only 9:30am PST.
Aum Namah Shivaya...I will write again soon.
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,
Working at the cash register for the Western Canteen every day for breakfast is a wonderful seva to do. You get to see people right away in the morning after they have either meditated with the sun rise and/or done Archana.
Dealing with the Indian money is disgusting though...it's really dirty so I am constantly washing my hands here (moreso than in the West).
I had my second Malayalam class today and the teacher was a little annoyed with me as she could tell that I didn't do any studying last night at all. I guess somethings will never change. There really isn't a lot of time to practise what I've learned as the days are so rich with things to do here.
Today I changed all of the US money (cash) that I brought with me, had a Malayalam class, bought a mini travelling size harmonium (which I had seen and couldn't resist), signed up for an astrology reading scheduled on Saturday morning, went and sat with Mother, did prashad seva, and watched (up close) a most beautiful Pada Puja (honouring of the Feet of the Guru by bathing them in different materials such as milk, ghee, water, etc.) This Indian couple approached Amma toward the end of Darshan today and did this entire ritual with so much love and devotion, it was mesmerizing. After performing the Pada Puja they adorned Her with 22K gold anklets, bracelets, earrings, rings, necklaces and a most beautiful gem studded Krishna crown. They then wrapped a red and gold sari around Her.
This entire witnessing made me cry my eyes out. They fed Her prashad that was obviously homemade. It was a kind of Sikh prashad with cashews. Amma was hilarious and totally like Krishna. She literally picked through the prashad and pulled out ALL of the cashews and ate them Herself. Then She scooped out little by little the prashad and handed in directly into the hands of the nearby devotees. By Amma's Grace, I was right by Her shoulder (behind the videographer) and was able to reach my hand out and receive some of the blessed offering.
Bhajans followed this experience with Amma, but She did not come out for bhajans. Swami just led the bhajans and they were nice. Amma must have been quite tired by this time and retired to Her room.
After bhajans, I had dinner (masala dosa and neyroast) - my new favourite meal for dinner at the Ashram, which is only served when Amma is here so I'd better get my full share in as quickly as possible. This was in celebration of Prachetas' going away. He is leaving tomorrow for Kovallum and then leaves on Monday for Nevada City, CA.
It just blows my mind away how Amma fulfills every need. I am blessed a million times over and I can truly feel it. My mind has never once considered what I am going to do when I get back home for work. I am just not concerned by it in the least. I know that Amma will take care of all those minor details.
I should go now and do some studying before bed so that I don't get reprimanded again tomorrow. It's 11pm here now and only 9:30am PST.
Aum Namah Shivaya...I will write again soon.
Everything and then Some...
Feb 26, 2009
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,
Working at the cash register for the Western Canteen every day for breakfast is a wonderful seva to do. You get to see people right away in the morning after they have either meditated with the sun rise and/or done Archana.
Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,
Working at the cash register for the Western Canteen every day for breakfast is a wonderful seva to do. You get to see people right away in the morning after they have either meditated with the sun rise and/or done Archana.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
First Darshan in Amritapuri
Feb 25, 2009
I love Kerela! I just had my first Malayalam lesson from this very sweet woman named Seline. She shared her story of how she met Amma. It turns out that when Amma was about 7 years of age, in grade 3 (standard), Seline was Her teacher for English. Seline's English is not great, but she was just teaching the basics of English and some easy words. Amma dropped out of school after that point as She had to tend to Her family since Her mother was not keeping good health. How exciting and wonderful is that?!?! Amma's teacher is now my teacher in Malayalam! I really quite like the Malayalam language and it's coming pretty easy to me (fingers crossed hoping that it remains this way) due to my Punjabi and Hindi background. Seline is teaching me how to read and write the language too (which was not what I was expecting at all).
I received my first Darshan in Amritapuri today. Mother is giving Darshan in the Kali Temple today and it's very, VERY different than receiving Darshan in North America. She is spending much more time with each person and there doesn't seem to be as much of an uptight energy surrounding Her. I was in Amma's embrace for quite some time and breathing in all of Her joy and love so very deeply into my heart and soul. It's a weekday so maybe there aren't as many people as usual coming for Darshan today as they are all at work.
I had idly and sambar again for breakfast today. I ate lunch in the Indian line (what comes with my rent for the room) which was really tasty! The rice at lunch is not watery, so it was good with the daal and vegetable that was served. God, by the time I get back to North America at this rate, I will be super huge...move over Jimbo, make room for your hugely fat husband.
I just got my mom's Indian cell phone figured out here as well. I had to get a new SIM card for it that would be cheaper to use in Kerela as the one that she had in the phone was for North India (Punjab). It's all really reasonable here to have my SIM card and phone number for future travels to Kerela as I KNOW that this will not be my first and last time here.
I am now starting to settle in a bit more now that I have "connectivity" (that's a Jimmy-ism). There are many rumours flying around about Amma's plans for a North India tour. All I know is that anywhere within India that She is going to travel to, I am going to be right behind Her. This was the purpose of my trip here. Although, I am quite content with even just having experienced Amritapuri Ashram.
I think of all of you all the time as I sit and meditate at the beach side in the evenings for the sunset and while I sit in bhajans with Amma...you are all in my heart and I take you all to the Divine Mother's Feet in my mind and heart each day.
I will write more tomorrow. I must get ready for bhajans with Amma now. Even though it's 4:45am PST, it's 6:20pm here in Kerela and bhajans will be starting pretty soon. I think that Amma only just finished giving Darshan as the bhajans by the brahmacharis just ended.
Aum Namah Shivaya!
I love Kerela! I just had my first Malayalam lesson from this very sweet woman named Seline. She shared her story of how she met Amma. It turns out that when Amma was about 7 years of age, in grade 3 (standard), Seline was Her teacher for English. Seline's English is not great, but she was just teaching the basics of English and some easy words. Amma dropped out of school after that point as She had to tend to Her family since Her mother was not keeping good health. How exciting and wonderful is that?!?! Amma's teacher is now my teacher in Malayalam! I really quite like the Malayalam language and it's coming pretty easy to me (fingers crossed hoping that it remains this way) due to my Punjabi and Hindi background. Seline is teaching me how to read and write the language too (which was not what I was expecting at all).
I received my first Darshan in Amritapuri today. Mother is giving Darshan in the Kali Temple today and it's very, VERY different than receiving Darshan in North America. She is spending much more time with each person and there doesn't seem to be as much of an uptight energy surrounding Her. I was in Amma's embrace for quite some time and breathing in all of Her joy and love so very deeply into my heart and soul. It's a weekday so maybe there aren't as many people as usual coming for Darshan today as they are all at work.
I had idly and sambar again for breakfast today. I ate lunch in the Indian line (what comes with my rent for the room) which was really tasty! The rice at lunch is not watery, so it was good with the daal and vegetable that was served. God, by the time I get back to North America at this rate, I will be super huge...move over Jimbo, make room for your hugely fat husband.
I just got my mom's Indian cell phone figured out here as well. I had to get a new SIM card for it that would be cheaper to use in Kerela as the one that she had in the phone was for North India (Punjab). It's all really reasonable here to have my SIM card and phone number for future travels to Kerela as I KNOW that this will not be my first and last time here.
I am now starting to settle in a bit more now that I have "connectivity" (that's a Jimmy-ism). There are many rumours flying around about Amma's plans for a North India tour. All I know is that anywhere within India that She is going to travel to, I am going to be right behind Her. This was the purpose of my trip here. Although, I am quite content with even just having experienced Amritapuri Ashram.
I think of all of you all the time as I sit and meditate at the beach side in the evenings for the sunset and while I sit in bhajans with Amma...you are all in my heart and I take you all to the Divine Mother's Feet in my mind and heart each day.
I will write more tomorrow. I must get ready for bhajans with Amma now. Even though it's 4:45am PST, it's 6:20pm here in Kerela and bhajans will be starting pretty soon. I think that Amma only just finished giving Darshan as the bhajans by the brahmacharis just ended.
Aum Namah Shivaya!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Feb 22, 2009
Sorry it has taken me so long to write again, but it takes some time to get situated in India.
The entire trip started off on a bit of a weird footing. Amma was helping me through every step of the way though…this I know for sure. I arrived at the airport with my parents and husband to see me off. Went through security and one of my carry-on bags was searched as they found my nail clipper set. The security representative requested that I give my family the scissors from that nail clipper set along with the needle nose pliers that I brought with me to do some jewellery making. I had to step back outside the doors and hand these items back to Jim. Then I had to go through the entire process all over again. Go through the security lines, strip off my belt and shoes, remove my laptop from its carry case, go through the screening and hear the loud screech AGAIN. It seemed that they were all new security representatives by the time I had returned (which was all of 5 minutes or less). Again, they wanted to search that same very bag. The first security representative was standing there and said (quite rudely) “did you not hand over all of the items that I gave you?” To which I responded, “I most certainly did. You handed me the scissors out of my cuticle and nail clipper case and the pliers, all of which are no longer in this bag.” The new representative continued to search through while I called my Mother and requested that they not travel too far away from the airport lounge quite yet, until I let them know that everything was good and I was seated at my departure gate. The representative removed my tube of toothpaste, as it was the regular size tube (even though more than half of it was already used). Interesting that the first representative did not catch that in her thorough search of my bag.
I called my Mother and informed her that everything was now fine and I am on my way to my gate. Upon arrival at the gate, I went up to the boarding agents to request a seat change as I was put in a middle seat and I get very claustrophobic and sick. The Air Canada representative named “Jane” who was checking people in was quite rude as well. I approached her and very nicely asked “I am wondering if there is any possibility of a seat change to an aisle as I get really claustrophobic and sick in any other seat.” To which she responded “and what if we don’t have an aisle seat? I guess we will just have to give you an extra sick bag.” Well, that was not very nice at all and of course, I intend on filing a formal complaint with Air Canada regarding this representative’s lack of customer service skills.
Needless to say, the start of my journey from Vancouver, BC to London, England was less than desirable. Once I actually boarded the plane, I found that there was a Sikh family who was scattered throughout the aircraft and would rather prefer to have as many of their family members seated as closely as possible. This played in my favour as one of their family members was seated in an aisle seat a little further back on the aircraft. I was happy to trade seats with him. I was then seated next to only one other person who was a very nice woman on her way to visit her boyfriend in London.
Having to get off of one plane and immediately go through security was a bit of a bore by the time I got to the last leg of my trip, but I guess in their defence, it’s better to be safe than sorry.
Once I arrived in London, England, and got through the security (which was quite fun…the security man was HOT and he frisked me like I’ve never been frisked before!!!). I had all of an hour to find my way to the next gate to catch my Emirates flight to Dubai. In that hour, I managed to squeeze in a short stop at the Harrod’s store – I love that store!
When I checked in for my Emirates flight from London to Dubai (which had me in an aisle seat), I requested a seat change for the last leg of my trip (Dubai to Trivandrum) as I was seated at a window seat. They happily switched my seat and to my great surprise and delight, that seat change actually bumped me up to Business Class (at no extra charge). Not only was I situated close to the front of the aircraft (which is my preference) but I was seated next to only one individual and the seats were like lazy-boy chairs complete with recliner and footrest.
Dubai was interesting to stop at for 3 hours or so. I had a bean burger at the Burger King in the airport, which was actually quite good. I changed outfits and tied a turban in Dubai airport restroom to avoid any issues at the Indian port of entry. You see, my passport picture shows me with a turban and full beard. If I showed up with a clean-shaven face and short hair, there was a possibility that they might have made some trouble for me as I look very different from the picture in the passport.
When I got on the plane in Dubai, headed for Trivandrum, I can’t tell you how excited and pleased I was that this was the last leg and that I would be in Kerela within 3 hours. Everything went really smoothly. No delays or hold-ups at the border. My pre-ordered taxi was ready and awaiting my arrival to take me out to Amritapuri (Amma’s Ashram) which is about a 3 hour drive from the airport.
The drive to the Ashram was a typical experience of driving in India. Rickety streets, lots of horn honking and a jig-saw puzzle of vehicles, including scooters, bicycles, cars, truck and buses with people hanging off them, all trying to cut the driver ahead. I really appreciated the taxi driver that came recommended to me. He was very supportive of my unspoken need to be silent for most of the road journey to the Ashram. He did make some small talk, which was nice and unobtrusive.
Upon arriving on the Ashram compound, my heart started to flutter and I knew I was home. I promptly checked in at the International office and proceeded to my room in the “E” building (which is the best building of the lot for spectacular views of both, the back waters and the Arabian Sea).
On my way down in the elevator, I bumped into two very nice people. “Sundari”, a western woman who seems to live here on the compound and a hot gay western man named “Prachetas” from Nevada City, CA. These two wonderful and loving souls took me under their wing and showed me the lay of the land after lunch. Meals here on the Ashram are very simple. They consist of rice, daal and some kind of vegetable. This is part of the Rs. 150/day rent that one pays to stay at the Ashram. The food is very tasty and full of prana (life force). There is also the Western Canteen where the more western style foods are available such as pizza, french fries, etc. and an Indian Canteen where more elaborate authentic South Indian cuisine can be obtained. Food at both of these canteens are available for a small price. I was quite content with the offerings that come part of my daily rent.
I went on an “official tour” of the compound, which began at 5pm and ended up at the beach side for the sunset meditation at 6:30pm. God…it’s just such a beautiful and “down to earth” place to be. It truly is a poor village and you can feel, energetically, the simplicity of the people who inhabit these lands.
At 6:30pm, when Amma is not at the Ashram (as was the case upon my arrival), the men gather at the Meditation Hall or Auditorium for Satsang (singing of spiritual hymns), while the women do the same in the Kali Temple (the main temple space). This is followed by dinner. Once dinner has been eaten, most people retire for the night to ensure that they are awake at 4am and ready to start Archana (recitation of the 1,000 Names of the Divine Mother) at 4:50am.
Somehow, by the Grace of Amma, I did not experience any jetlag. I slept most of the way on the flights and the shakti (strong energy) on the Ashram compound was enough to sustain me through the first day of my being at the Ashram.
I was able to arise before the sun at 4am and get showered and dressed in time for my first Archana at the homeland of the Divine Mother. I am so grateful for Prachetas and the people that he has introduced me to so far. He and Neermama invited me to join them on a bus to the end of the beach to watch the dolphins play. As we awaited the bus to take us to our destination at the end of the beach, Prachetas pointed out a little temple that has been erected right by the bus stop behind the Ashram. This was the spot where Amma performed the miracle many years ago of converting milk into rice pudding to prove Her divinity to the local people. That is one of my favourite stories of Amma’s childhood and it was just so charging for me to be able to see that place where Her divinity and authenticity was revealed to the general public.
We returned from the beach and enjoyed breakfast from the Indian Canteen. Idly and Sambar – YUM – I could eat that every morning and never get bored!
This day has gone by pretty nicely and stress-free. Amma returns tonight to the Ashram in time for Shivaratri (a festival of purification and perserverence) which is tomorrow.
I have already done some shopping as I have found some things in the stores here on the Ashram compound that will make my 3 month stay here, much more enjoyable and easeful.
Feb 23, 2009
I attended a homa (fire ceremony) in celebration of Shivaratri this morning. It was so hot and the fire blazing in front of my eyes was making it even more disgustingly hot, BUT....the homa was conducted in the Kalari (the building that used to be Amma's family's cowshed and where She began giving Darshan or hugs to humanity). Man, that building is very high in vibration and it's just unbelievable that I am here witnessing and experiencing all of this energy and being able to put these things into context is pretty mind-blowing!
I also attended a Shivaratri Puja (ritual) in the Kalari after the evening bhajans (devotional live chanting) with Amma in the Main Hall space.
I was asked to be in a play that would be offered to Amma at the Shivaratri festivities, that will depict Lord Shiva's importance and symbolism. That was really fun to be in and to offer to Amma.
After all the presentations and some few bhajans sung by Amma in the Main Hall, it was off to bed as I was exhausted. The ideal was to stay up all night and go right into Archana (early morning chanting of the 1,000 Names of the Divine Mother), but I knew that if I stayed up for that, I would not be able to show up to my seva (selfless service) obligation.
Feb 24, 2009
After a partial night of no sleep, I had a really great day today!
My day started off with doing my seva (selfless service) which is right up my alley...Amma (Kali) is being really nice and kind to me (so far), as I am working in the Western Food Line as a cashier. This is a very big honour as they trust me enough to handle the monies and they are all very encouraging. It's also allowing me to use my banking and customer service skills to the best of my ability while filling a basic ashram need.
After a delicious breakfast of dosa and sambar, I retreated to the Kali Temple (main temple space) for meditation with Amma. This was followed by a short Q&A session with Amma - and for once the Question was actually a good one. "How does one help or assist a friend who feels that they are worthless and have no purpose on this earth?" Amma's response to this was really great and quite lengthy with stories, but the basic jist of Her response was that we are each in fact very worthy of this life and we are all priceless. If a man were to ask you to sell any of your appendages to him, your response would likely be "not a chance" no matter what the price was. This illustrated that even just our physical bodies are worth so much. One must find out what the source of these feelings are for a person in order to truly address the matter.
Once the Q&A session was complete, we were served lunch by Amma and of course, whenever the Divine Mother infuses Her energy in the meal that you are about to receive, it's like no other food that you have every eaten in your life.
After lunch, Prachetas and I took an auto rickshaw into Karunagappally to get me set up with a modem for internet use. It's pretty amazing...I bought the hardware USB modem which was on Rs. 4140 (equivalent of about $85.00 USD). Now I own this modem so that I can use it on future trips to Kerela (as I know this will NOT be my last trip here). The monthly rate for unlimited internet access was Rs. 618 (equivalent of about $13.00 USD) per month. Now I am set up to be able to use the internet on my laptop from anywhere that there is a cellular signal (which in this area seems to be everywhere - believe it or not).
I got some really great dhotis (sarongs) to wear here as it's customary and it's so overwhelmingly hot, that one doesn't want to wear too many pieces of clothing if at all avoidable, but there are certain dress code standards at the Ashram.
This is making feel great! I am able to connect to the internet with ease now AND I can dress more comfortably and stylish for South India - It's all about the stylishness...but my obsession to be nicely pressed all the time is not manifesting here in India. Amma is really dealing with my hang-ups of prestene (sp?) attire and striving for perfection. I had to shave my head as soon as I arrived here at the Ashram as it's just way too hot to deal with hair that's just growing in and those awful in-between stages of my hair growth...either it was me, or the hair that had to go and I sure as hell wasn't going to turn around and go back to North America after my recent experiences of getting here.
I was finally able to chat with my beloved husband Jimmy on Skype this evening (I think I woke him up at 4:30am PST), but I was just so excited to finally be connected. Instead of going to the Main Hall for bhajans this evening, I ended up staying in my room and chatting with my roommate about my experiences of meeting Amma and Her influence in my life over the last several years. Also, sharing some of the stories of Jim's experience with Amma. So in essence we were having our own little Satsang (spiritual gathering/service) all the while hearing Amma through our open windows singing Her heart out to the Divine. We made it down to the Hall in time for Aarti (ceremonial removal of the ego by waving a camphor flame in front of the Divine Mother), this is my favourite part of Satsang anyhow.
Following this was a different dinner (I splurged and got a grilled cheese with fries - which were really good). The food that is included in the daily rent for the room at the Ashram is actually quite good. I love the vegetables and daal that they serve. At breakfast and dinner, the rice is really watered down, but still really good. This evening, I was feeling in the mood for some western food. Mother's Ashram accommodates all!
Now off to bed in hopes of waking up in time for Archana tomorrow morning. Amma gives Darshan tomorrow as well so it's gonna be a busy day and I will need to have as much energy as I can muster up.
Aum Namah Shivaya!
Sorry it has taken me so long to write again, but it takes some time to get situated in India.
The entire trip started off on a bit of a weird footing. Amma was helping me through every step of the way though…this I know for sure. I arrived at the airport with my parents and husband to see me off. Went through security and one of my carry-on bags was searched as they found my nail clipper set. The security representative requested that I give my family the scissors from that nail clipper set along with the needle nose pliers that I brought with me to do some jewellery making. I had to step back outside the doors and hand these items back to Jim. Then I had to go through the entire process all over again. Go through the security lines, strip off my belt and shoes, remove my laptop from its carry case, go through the screening and hear the loud screech AGAIN. It seemed that they were all new security representatives by the time I had returned (which was all of 5 minutes or less). Again, they wanted to search that same very bag. The first security representative was standing there and said (quite rudely) “did you not hand over all of the items that I gave you?” To which I responded, “I most certainly did. You handed me the scissors out of my cuticle and nail clipper case and the pliers, all of which are no longer in this bag.” The new representative continued to search through while I called my Mother and requested that they not travel too far away from the airport lounge quite yet, until I let them know that everything was good and I was seated at my departure gate. The representative removed my tube of toothpaste, as it was the regular size tube (even though more than half of it was already used). Interesting that the first representative did not catch that in her thorough search of my bag.
I called my Mother and informed her that everything was now fine and I am on my way to my gate. Upon arrival at the gate, I went up to the boarding agents to request a seat change as I was put in a middle seat and I get very claustrophobic and sick. The Air Canada representative named “Jane” who was checking people in was quite rude as well. I approached her and very nicely asked “I am wondering if there is any possibility of a seat change to an aisle as I get really claustrophobic and sick in any other seat.” To which she responded “and what if we don’t have an aisle seat? I guess we will just have to give you an extra sick bag.” Well, that was not very nice at all and of course, I intend on filing a formal complaint with Air Canada regarding this representative’s lack of customer service skills.
Needless to say, the start of my journey from Vancouver, BC to London, England was less than desirable. Once I actually boarded the plane, I found that there was a Sikh family who was scattered throughout the aircraft and would rather prefer to have as many of their family members seated as closely as possible. This played in my favour as one of their family members was seated in an aisle seat a little further back on the aircraft. I was happy to trade seats with him. I was then seated next to only one other person who was a very nice woman on her way to visit her boyfriend in London.
Having to get off of one plane and immediately go through security was a bit of a bore by the time I got to the last leg of my trip, but I guess in their defence, it’s better to be safe than sorry.
Once I arrived in London, England, and got through the security (which was quite fun…the security man was HOT and he frisked me like I’ve never been frisked before!!!). I had all of an hour to find my way to the next gate to catch my Emirates flight to Dubai. In that hour, I managed to squeeze in a short stop at the Harrod’s store – I love that store!
When I checked in for my Emirates flight from London to Dubai (which had me in an aisle seat), I requested a seat change for the last leg of my trip (Dubai to Trivandrum) as I was seated at a window seat. They happily switched my seat and to my great surprise and delight, that seat change actually bumped me up to Business Class (at no extra charge). Not only was I situated close to the front of the aircraft (which is my preference) but I was seated next to only one individual and the seats were like lazy-boy chairs complete with recliner and footrest.
Dubai was interesting to stop at for 3 hours or so. I had a bean burger at the Burger King in the airport, which was actually quite good. I changed outfits and tied a turban in Dubai airport restroom to avoid any issues at the Indian port of entry. You see, my passport picture shows me with a turban and full beard. If I showed up with a clean-shaven face and short hair, there was a possibility that they might have made some trouble for me as I look very different from the picture in the passport.
When I got on the plane in Dubai, headed for Trivandrum, I can’t tell you how excited and pleased I was that this was the last leg and that I would be in Kerela within 3 hours. Everything went really smoothly. No delays or hold-ups at the border. My pre-ordered taxi was ready and awaiting my arrival to take me out to Amritapuri (Amma’s Ashram) which is about a 3 hour drive from the airport.
The drive to the Ashram was a typical experience of driving in India. Rickety streets, lots of horn honking and a jig-saw puzzle of vehicles, including scooters, bicycles, cars, truck and buses with people hanging off them, all trying to cut the driver ahead. I really appreciated the taxi driver that came recommended to me. He was very supportive of my unspoken need to be silent for most of the road journey to the Ashram. He did make some small talk, which was nice and unobtrusive.
Upon arriving on the Ashram compound, my heart started to flutter and I knew I was home. I promptly checked in at the International office and proceeded to my room in the “E” building (which is the best building of the lot for spectacular views of both, the back waters and the Arabian Sea).
On my way down in the elevator, I bumped into two very nice people. “Sundari”, a western woman who seems to live here on the compound and a hot gay western man named “Prachetas” from Nevada City, CA. These two wonderful and loving souls took me under their wing and showed me the lay of the land after lunch. Meals here on the Ashram are very simple. They consist of rice, daal and some kind of vegetable. This is part of the Rs. 150/day rent that one pays to stay at the Ashram. The food is very tasty and full of prana (life force). There is also the Western Canteen where the more western style foods are available such as pizza, french fries, etc. and an Indian Canteen where more elaborate authentic South Indian cuisine can be obtained. Food at both of these canteens are available for a small price. I was quite content with the offerings that come part of my daily rent.
I went on an “official tour” of the compound, which began at 5pm and ended up at the beach side for the sunset meditation at 6:30pm. God…it’s just such a beautiful and “down to earth” place to be. It truly is a poor village and you can feel, energetically, the simplicity of the people who inhabit these lands.
At 6:30pm, when Amma is not at the Ashram (as was the case upon my arrival), the men gather at the Meditation Hall or Auditorium for Satsang (singing of spiritual hymns), while the women do the same in the Kali Temple (the main temple space). This is followed by dinner. Once dinner has been eaten, most people retire for the night to ensure that they are awake at 4am and ready to start Archana (recitation of the 1,000 Names of the Divine Mother) at 4:50am.
Somehow, by the Grace of Amma, I did not experience any jetlag. I slept most of the way on the flights and the shakti (strong energy) on the Ashram compound was enough to sustain me through the first day of my being at the Ashram.
I was able to arise before the sun at 4am and get showered and dressed in time for my first Archana at the homeland of the Divine Mother. I am so grateful for Prachetas and the people that he has introduced me to so far. He and Neermama invited me to join them on a bus to the end of the beach to watch the dolphins play. As we awaited the bus to take us to our destination at the end of the beach, Prachetas pointed out a little temple that has been erected right by the bus stop behind the Ashram. This was the spot where Amma performed the miracle many years ago of converting milk into rice pudding to prove Her divinity to the local people. That is one of my favourite stories of Amma’s childhood and it was just so charging for me to be able to see that place where Her divinity and authenticity was revealed to the general public.
We returned from the beach and enjoyed breakfast from the Indian Canteen. Idly and Sambar – YUM – I could eat that every morning and never get bored!
This day has gone by pretty nicely and stress-free. Amma returns tonight to the Ashram in time for Shivaratri (a festival of purification and perserverence) which is tomorrow.
I have already done some shopping as I have found some things in the stores here on the Ashram compound that will make my 3 month stay here, much more enjoyable and easeful.
Feb 23, 2009
I attended a homa (fire ceremony) in celebration of Shivaratri this morning. It was so hot and the fire blazing in front of my eyes was making it even more disgustingly hot, BUT....the homa was conducted in the Kalari (the building that used to be Amma's family's cowshed and where She began giving Darshan or hugs to humanity). Man, that building is very high in vibration and it's just unbelievable that I am here witnessing and experiencing all of this energy and being able to put these things into context is pretty mind-blowing!
I also attended a Shivaratri Puja (ritual) in the Kalari after the evening bhajans (devotional live chanting) with Amma in the Main Hall space.
I was asked to be in a play that would be offered to Amma at the Shivaratri festivities, that will depict Lord Shiva's importance and symbolism. That was really fun to be in and to offer to Amma.
After all the presentations and some few bhajans sung by Amma in the Main Hall, it was off to bed as I was exhausted. The ideal was to stay up all night and go right into Archana (early morning chanting of the 1,000 Names of the Divine Mother), but I knew that if I stayed up for that, I would not be able to show up to my seva (selfless service) obligation.
Feb 24, 2009
After a partial night of no sleep, I had a really great day today!
My day started off with doing my seva (selfless service) which is right up my alley...Amma (Kali) is being really nice and kind to me (so far), as I am working in the Western Food Line as a cashier. This is a very big honour as they trust me enough to handle the monies and they are all very encouraging. It's also allowing me to use my banking and customer service skills to the best of my ability while filling a basic ashram need.
After a delicious breakfast of dosa and sambar, I retreated to the Kali Temple (main temple space) for meditation with Amma. This was followed by a short Q&A session with Amma - and for once the Question was actually a good one. "How does one help or assist a friend who feels that they are worthless and have no purpose on this earth?" Amma's response to this was really great and quite lengthy with stories, but the basic jist of Her response was that we are each in fact very worthy of this life and we are all priceless. If a man were to ask you to sell any of your appendages to him, your response would likely be "not a chance" no matter what the price was. This illustrated that even just our physical bodies are worth so much. One must find out what the source of these feelings are for a person in order to truly address the matter.
Once the Q&A session was complete, we were served lunch by Amma and of course, whenever the Divine Mother infuses Her energy in the meal that you are about to receive, it's like no other food that you have every eaten in your life.
After lunch, Prachetas and I took an auto rickshaw into Karunagappally to get me set up with a modem for internet use. It's pretty amazing...I bought the hardware USB modem which was on Rs. 4140 (equivalent of about $85.00 USD). Now I own this modem so that I can use it on future trips to Kerela (as I know this will NOT be my last trip here). The monthly rate for unlimited internet access was Rs. 618 (equivalent of about $13.00 USD) per month. Now I am set up to be able to use the internet on my laptop from anywhere that there is a cellular signal (which in this area seems to be everywhere - believe it or not).
I got some really great dhotis (sarongs) to wear here as it's customary and it's so overwhelmingly hot, that one doesn't want to wear too many pieces of clothing if at all avoidable, but there are certain dress code standards at the Ashram.
This is making feel great! I am able to connect to the internet with ease now AND I can dress more comfortably and stylish for South India - It's all about the stylishness...but my obsession to be nicely pressed all the time is not manifesting here in India. Amma is really dealing with my hang-ups of prestene (sp?) attire and striving for perfection. I had to shave my head as soon as I arrived here at the Ashram as it's just way too hot to deal with hair that's just growing in and those awful in-between stages of my hair growth...either it was me, or the hair that had to go and I sure as hell wasn't going to turn around and go back to North America after my recent experiences of getting here.
I was finally able to chat with my beloved husband Jimmy on Skype this evening (I think I woke him up at 4:30am PST), but I was just so excited to finally be connected. Instead of going to the Main Hall for bhajans this evening, I ended up staying in my room and chatting with my roommate about my experiences of meeting Amma and Her influence in my life over the last several years. Also, sharing some of the stories of Jim's experience with Amma. So in essence we were having our own little Satsang (spiritual gathering/service) all the while hearing Amma through our open windows singing Her heart out to the Divine. We made it down to the Hall in time for Aarti (ceremonial removal of the ego by waving a camphor flame in front of the Divine Mother), this is my favourite part of Satsang anyhow.
Following this was a different dinner (I splurged and got a grilled cheese with fries - which were really good). The food that is included in the daily rent for the room at the Ashram is actually quite good. I love the vegetables and daal that they serve. At breakfast and dinner, the rice is really watered down, but still really good. This evening, I was feeling in the mood for some western food. Mother's Ashram accommodates all!
Now off to bed in hopes of waking up in time for Archana tomorrow morning. Amma gives Darshan tomorrow as well so it's gonna be a busy day and I will need to have as much energy as I can muster up.
Aum Namah Shivaya!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Getting Prepared for Travels...
So...it's 10:30pm on February 18, 2009 and I am scheduled to leave tomorrow morning for 3 months to Amritapuri (Amma's Ashram) in Kerela, South India. I have not packed a single thing as yet. The anxiety is beginning to set in but Thank Goddess, it's not overwhelming me.
Having left BC Housing after close to 2 complete years and going straight to the Faerie Gathering just outside of Portland at the Breitenbush Hot Springs for 5 days was a really great way to begin this journey of mind, body and spirit!
Jim and I returned from Breitenbush on the evening of February 17, 2009. The emotions and experiences of the Gathering are still very raw. I am in a real state of vulnerability beginning this journey to the beginning of time, before I ever was. Going to rest in the Lap of the Divine Mother is exciting but am I ready for the kinds of emotions and transformations that undoubtedly lie ahead???
Lord knows, I am physically not prepared as yet (haven't packed a single thing) and time is awastin'
More to this blog once the packing is underway and I am feeling more confident in my readiness for this journey.
Having left BC Housing after close to 2 complete years and going straight to the Faerie Gathering just outside of Portland at the Breitenbush Hot Springs for 5 days was a really great way to begin this journey of mind, body and spirit!
Jim and I returned from Breitenbush on the evening of February 17, 2009. The emotions and experiences of the Gathering are still very raw. I am in a real state of vulnerability beginning this journey to the beginning of time, before I ever was. Going to rest in the Lap of the Divine Mother is exciting but am I ready for the kinds of emotions and transformations that undoubtedly lie ahead???
Lord knows, I am physically not prepared as yet (haven't packed a single thing) and time is awastin'
More to this blog once the packing is underway and I am feeling more confident in my readiness for this journey.
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