Baggage Fatigue

March 16, 2009

Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,

Today, I have had a very busy day and I am quite fatigued. It feels like I have a lot of 'baggage' that I am sorting through!!!

I mean that in the sense of emotions (which Amma has been working with me over the last few days) and also packing for the abbreviated North India Tour AND the Kenya Tour. They want us to pack two separate bags; one for the North India Tour and then one for the Kenya Tour specifically which will go directly to Banglore (the last stop on the North India Tour). I am not interested in doing that at all. The theory is that the North India bag will be sent back on the buses to the Ashram and we just collect our Kenya Tour bag(s) in Banglore and travel to Singapore with that. Too many unknowns around the bags coming back to the Ashram. Where will they be stored? Will someone else pick mine up by mistake? No...no...I am happy just taking one small duffle bag in which all of my clothes for both North India and Kenya Tours will fit.

I have just finished packing for the Tours and I am feeling extremely fatigued and exhausted. I had my last Malayalam class today for awhile (as the teacher does not come on Tour). Hopefully, I will be able to take a few more classes upon my return to Amritapuri after the Kenya Tour, but if not, then I feel like I have taken a good "kick at the can" and I am starting to read things pretty well now. The dictionary back home and Clara's infinite wisdom in spoken Malayalam will come in real handy now.

I am tired, but I want to get ready for Bhajans this evening as there is talk that Amma WILL be coming out for bhajans tonight.

Interestingly enough, I am not all that excited about going on tour at the moment. This just shows you how fatigued I truly am in the moment.

My roommates have both checked out so upon my return to the Ashram, I have no idea who I will be rooming with. I am going to move some stuff around in the room so that I can get the 'better' spot in the room BEFORE I leave for tour since it's likely that someone (or possibly two other people) will be placed in this room with me while I am still on the Kenya Tour. If my stuff is all set up in the area of the room that I want to be in and the bed has stuff on it, then chances are no one will use that space!

Better get going now so that I can figure out these details and prepare for bhajans!

Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah...